Wednesday, February 9, 2011 / 4:13 PM
I LOVE HENRY LAU! HAHAHAH i just wanted to say that. BYEEEEE!
The inhumanity! Thursday, February 3, 2011 / 6:03 PM
So this past week i went for one of my favourite bands concert in singapore called Super Show 3. Its by a band called super junior. And i was so excited to see them cause they haven't had a super show in singapore before. I was doubly excited when one of my suju crazy close friends told me that one of my members from their sub-group Suju M was going to be performing also. His name is Henry Lau and him and another guy named Zhou Mi are not officially part of the whole super junior as a band but they are in the sub-group. Henry made his first appearance playing the violin in a music video done by super junior called Don't don. This was a few years ago and apparently because of henry's appearance, it cause quite a stir in the suju fan world. Many people who idolised super junior formed an only 13 campaign and were protesting about there not being the two additional members. I'm not really sure about the details i only have a general idea. Last year in a video taken from super show 2 in shanghai, when henry and zhou mi were up on stage and singing alot of the fans were chanting stuff along the lines of "only 13" or "get off" as in get off the stage. I knew that this campaign started a few years ago but i didnt know it carried on until now. I also didn't know the extent or intensity of it.
Suju had two concerts in singapore and there was a rumor of sorts spread that when henry was performing his solo which was "Baby" by justin bieber, it was really quiet in the stands and nobody was really cheering. Me and my friend were really pissed off about that so when we went for the show and when it was henry's solo there really was silence...until me and my friends started screaming our lungs out. Thank god my friend screams twice as loud as i do. After we started screaming, more people started to scream. And as i was watching the videos recently i just kept feeling that it really is sad that alot of the fans dont accept henry and zhou mi. They are still part of the band and super junior cares about them alot. So why do those who claim to love them totally give hell to those that super junior cares about. If you think about it, wont super junior be disappointed because their fans dont like the people that they are trying to protect? I mean its kind of counterproductive. I also dont think its fair to henry and zhoumi who work so hard to do well for the fans and to impress them but in the end its never enough. I just thank god for the fans that those two have who love them so much. I know henry's fans are called strings cause he plays the violin but i dunno about zhoumi. I also thank god for the older hyungs in the group such a heechul who always tries to cheer them up and no doubt fights for them. As well as hangkyung, siwon and donhae who you can always see taking care of henry and zhoumi.
I know this may seem really rant-y but i just had to say it because i think it really is poor thing for them. I'm sure also that henry misses his family because he went to asia to pursue a dream and left his family. and the only thing he hears when he gets on stage is people either booing him or zhou mi. How do you think that would make him feel??? Okay im calm. But seriously. I just hope the two of them know that there are tons of people who love them still. Just because they only hear the hate doesn't mean there isn't love. :) So just for the record, though its totally obvious, I LOVE YOU HENRY AND ZHOUMI.
-Shauna Beans
Sometimes fantasy is better than reality. Sunday, January 23, 2011 / 9:53 PM
You know how it is when you just wanna get close to someone, and it doesnt necessarily have to be someone you know..but just a feeling of closeness..of finishing each others sentences, of knowing each other so well you can see their thoughts in their eyes, of being in perfect sync with each other. I wish i had that in my life..unfortunately these things are not so commonly found. The fact is, i dont believe in love at first sight, so its not as if i'll see some guy and immediately know that all these will happen with him. But the feeling of wanting to believe they'll happen takes me over so much. I don't even know how to explain it. But impossible as it is, i want someone who'll know exactly why im irritated when i am, or who'll know exactly what to say in a difficult situation. A guy who can put me at ease just by being near me and can help me without me feeling like im stupid. I'm not delusional enough to fool myself into believing there's a guy like this out there..but like the title, sometimes fantasy IS better than reality. Because you can make yourself feel better by believing all the things that you really want and having them in your grasp.
But i'm not stupid. I know that in the end, we all have to wake up from our dreams. It's hard but at least we'll really be living and not fooling ourselves.
On a lighter note, my sister just barged in while i was writing this and STOLE THE TISSUE BOX SHE GAVE TO ME!! Cause apparently there're no more in the freaking house. -_-. HAIYO. Damn annoying. Sigh. Okay gonna continue reading VA now. BYE!
Hamburger with bipolar on the side please. Tuesday, January 18, 2011 / 7:21 PM
Soooooo was reading my friends blog on request from my other friend and damn. I think my brain died from emo. Okay so my friends blog is super duper emo and this friend is starting to creep me and my friend out a little. K so to make it easier the friend with the blog is friend A and the friend who told me to go to friend A's blog is friend B. So me and friend B were discussing how bipolar friend A is because friend A was screwed over by someone else. Yet despite that, i didnt think friend A's blog would be sooooo emo. HAIYO.
It really is freaking me out how many people in my life seem to be bipolar. 2 of these people are actually play quite important roles in my life so its quite annoying. But friend A also seems to have a touch of bipolarity and my brother does too. Or maybe im being biased because my brother is being a particularly annoying brand of douchbag these past few days.
School's starting to become the bitch i always knew it to be..such a welcoming thought. Gonna have to work my ass off just to get outta that hellhole man. Quite difficult just going to school everyday. And since my school is further away from my house now, its gonna be that much more difficult to get to school on time. I've already been cutting it pretty close recently and i wake up most mornings dragging myself out of bed, incoherent and dumbstruck cause i barely know what im doing.
I hope im not prone to other peoples emofication. But am gonna continue doing work now. Goodbye.
Mashups are awesome Sunday, January 16, 2011 / 1:20 PM
Before i go back to school tmrw..ugh..i wanted to blog. for fun. cause im bored. So me and my bro did a mashup for christian songs yesterday and it was kinda fun but frustrating too. We finished it in two hours and by then I, who was playing the guitar, could not feel my fingers. And i was feeling so weary. But the feeling of accomplishment with having completed something was awesome. So today got some people from choir coming over to harmonise it and i hope it is awesome!!! Despite some of them inviting the uninvited...well the more the merrier i guess. Im gonna love the way it sounds. So yeah. BYE!
It's starting... Thursday, January 6, 2011 / 4:04 PM
Hey there. Know its been a while. BUT anyways school has started up again as per usual for this time of year and its already off to a terrible start. Since my school is undergoing renovations we have shifted to a holding school which would be fine except this ones ancient!!! It's really old and creepy and abandoned looking but the worst part..? THE TOILETS ARE DISGUSTING. I'm not very particular about many things but toilets MUST be clean! I have to hold my bladder until i reach home because i refuse to use the toilet.
My friend went to the toilet before school ended and when she came out she said to me "The toilets..im never going in there again." The toilets are so old they use the old flushing system of pulling the long chain..HELLO 21ST CENTURY!!!!! And today once more i wished i had taken out my womb or my ovaries or whatever you take out when little aunt flow comes along. BLOODY HELL literally. I seriously cursed all my O level vocab out this morning. So the whole day in school i didnt go to the toilet. I got cramps and practically died. Homework is already starting to pile on and its only the 3rd day.
However i am willing to do the work! Okay gonna go do it now then..but first guitar hero for half an hour! BYE.
P.S. My mummy's blog is hilariously funny beans.
Stage fright much? Thursday, December 2, 2010 / 6:21 AM
You know how if you say or look at a word too much you'd think it looks weird or isnt spelt right? Yeah that just happened to me with the word fright. Okay but anyways...stage fright is probably one of my most annoying and difficult to pass challenges. I hate feeling like people are scrutinizing me and analysing whatever i'm up there for. Which is why its always hard for me to go for auditions, do solo performances and stuff like that. I get nervous so easily. If i'm singing for an audition or just practicing in front of my friend, i'd get so nervous my voice would waver and be shaky. And i've known this friend for years and years.
But seriously..i cant even do cantering in church. I love to sing but this stage fright thing is really getting in my way. People say i have a nice voice but i always believe that i dont match up. So i guess what i'm trying to say is...i need therapy...yeah..But its always scary for me..being judged by someone or disappointing..hopefully i'll get over this soon..cause seriously..ugh! i hate it.